Questioning the Norm
As the family’s black sheep and a natural rebel, I’ve always challenged the status quo.
Years later, during a spiritual awakening, I found myself in a psychic development class where the topic of self-love emerged.
And of course, I questioned my teacher on this subject—and I continue to do so even today.
The phrase “You must love yourself” has never resonated with me. Interestingly, I’ve discovered that many others feel the same way.
So, within the spiritual community, we form a small minority who view self-love with this mindset.
Why did not I connect with Self Love?
The first reason was that it was constantly being pushed in your face that you must love yourself. According to who the rebel in me asks.
We don`t always feel like love, rainbows and unicorns.
For some of us, the discomfort comes from childhood.
I was not brought up in a very emotional household. Actually, there were emotions but there was a lot of anger and yelling, typical of a Mediterranean family.
In my family we didn`t show love in affection, it was shown in other ways like in good ways such as food, or acts of service.
However, it was expressed in not-so-good ways, conforming, going to schools and having careers that looked good to others for society expectations sake.
It was thinking for the future, not living in the present. Getting married, having children and multiple investment properties. Showing people love by putting others first before ourselves and saying yes but really felt like saying no.
As I grew up, It dictated how I was in relationships, what I expected, what I put up with or didn’t, and what I thought I was or should be getting in return.
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